Countdown.

I am so happy right now. I have so many fun and exciting things to look forward too. As of now I am counting down to a number of things:

• In 8 days it is my 23rd birthday.
• In 15 days I finish work in the swimming pool.
• In 16 days I am GOING TO CALIFORNIA!!! I'm going to go and visit Mike for 10 days. I'm so excited! I cant wait to see him again. I do have a big dilema though, I dont know what kind of clothes to pack, obviously its not still summer there but I dont think it's cold enough for my winter clothes. 
• In 30 days I start my pre work training with the Ambulance Service. I've got to do 2 weeks of in class training and then a 3 week driving course so I can drive with the blue lights are sirens on. Exciting! 
• In 65 days SANTA's coming. My favourite time of year. I have also decided this year that I am going to do something I have wanted to do for years. I am going to do The Christmas Morning Swim. On one of my local beaches every year thousands of people meet down the beach late Christmas morning and watch the brave/crazy people go into the sea all in aid of raising money for chosen charities. Its more a big social event and a chance to see everyone on Christmas before we all retreat to our houses and eat way too much food. So in 65 days I have to run down a beach in front of thousands of people in a bikini! I must be mad.
• In 66 days I am going to Tennessee to FINALLY meet Mike's family. Im super excited to meet them all, but im also very VERY nervous! 
• In 84 days I start work with the Welsh Ambulance Service! Finally doing a adult job and putting into practice all I've learnt and bust my butt for the last 2 years. 

Im one happy and very lucky girl :)

Flossy x

Rediscovering Hobbies

Its always super fun to go back to and rediscover old hobbies. 

Last night, 4 years after hanging my hockey stick up I went back and played at a local club with 2 of my friends, both of whom also used to play. I really enjoyed it. I used to love playing hockey and I was quite good. I played a lot when I was in secondary school and then when I went to University my shoulder was playing up and I just lost interest in playing so stopped altogether.

All through my life I've enjoyed playing sports and always wanted to get better and play to higher standards. However I have such a hard time understanding and dealing with it when people become so into it that they live, breath, eat and sleep that sport. Im just not like that. For me sport is fun and I feel that when you get to a certain level the fun side is forgotten and it becomes more a way of life. 

Dont get me wrong I love the competitive side of sport, I am a very competitive person (sometimes a bit too much). But I just can't take something that seriously. I dont know whether its a defensive mechanism because im scared of failing if I push myself too much or if I just cant understand how you can take a sport that seriously and dedicate so much of yourself to it. I also know that the higher standard and level you play at the more of a crowd you get watching the games. As long as I can remember I have always hated people watching me play any sports. I get stage fright very easily and I am so scared of letting the people down who are there supporting me that I choke and end up doing just that. 

In all of my badminton competitions my family used to come and as much as I didn't like it, after playing in so many competitions I just got used to it. But I also knew that as my family they had to support me no matter how well or badly I did. I also used to try and sit them in a corner or as far away as I possibly could. 

Im so happy I went back and played, and surprisingly im not sore or hurting today, I know I've just jinxed myself for next week! I hope I can keep up playing, I want to go for the fitness as much as anything. Im already looking forward to next week!!

Flossy x