Rediscovering Hobbies

Its always super fun to go back to and rediscover old hobbies. 

Last night, 4 years after hanging my hockey stick up I went back and played at a local club with 2 of my friends, both of whom also used to play. I really enjoyed it. I used to love playing hockey and I was quite good. I played a lot when I was in secondary school and then when I went to University my shoulder was playing up and I just lost interest in playing so stopped altogether.

All through my life I've enjoyed playing sports and always wanted to get better and play to higher standards. However I have such a hard time understanding and dealing with it when people become so into it that they live, breath, eat and sleep that sport. Im just not like that. For me sport is fun and I feel that when you get to a certain level the fun side is forgotten and it becomes more a way of life. 

Dont get me wrong I love the competitive side of sport, I am a very competitive person (sometimes a bit too much). But I just can't take something that seriously. I dont know whether its a defensive mechanism because im scared of failing if I push myself too much or if I just cant understand how you can take a sport that seriously and dedicate so much of yourself to it. I also know that the higher standard and level you play at the more of a crowd you get watching the games. As long as I can remember I have always hated people watching me play any sports. I get stage fright very easily and I am so scared of letting the people down who are there supporting me that I choke and end up doing just that. 

In all of my badminton competitions my family used to come and as much as I didn't like it, after playing in so many competitions I just got used to it. But I also knew that as my family they had to support me no matter how well or badly I did. I also used to try and sit them in a corner or as far away as I possibly could. 

Im so happy I went back and played, and surprisingly im not sore or hurting today, I know I've just jinxed myself for next week! I hope I can keep up playing, I want to go for the fitness as much as anything. Im already looking forward to next week!!

Flossy x